I know what I am about to say is bold, but I have been thinking about it for some time, and I just really need to vent it out. I also wonder if anyone else feels this way, which I am sure you do, because how many demands can really be placed on us before we crack?
Do you ever feel like you are trying to Juggle so much already, and more needs to be added to the mix? And you have no idea how you are going to do what you are already doing let a lone add more to it? Being a parent is hard, and being a good parent is even harder. And being a parent of kids that have special needs above and beyond the "norm" is even harder still. But it's really hard to teach them responsibility, and accountability, respect and to serve and love one another. It's really hard to get them to learn how to read, and do their homework. It's hard to balance family and all that comes with it. And church and the time demands, and the different requirements for me and my kids. And then of course there is the kids and school With fund raisers and who wants me to go eat lunch when, or who's party I may or may not be able to attend. Then you add in Dr. appointments and exercise and trying to be healthy, and trying to eat what's good for you and your family, but everyday what is good for you changes depending on who you talk to or what you read or who says what on TV that day. Then how do I even have a spare minute for myself to read a book, take a relaxing bath or do something that I want to do? Or what if someone doesn't like what you did in a certain situation or what you said? How can I live my life and try and please everyone else too? Is it too much to want to be accepted for who you are? Sometimes it just seems to be too much. Sometimes I wish I could just snap my fingers and make it all better. Sometimes I wish there really were such things and magic to help make things easier and crystal balls to give me answers. But Life is just hard, and the answers are hard and they don't come easy.